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By: Kerry Lambert

I Can Only See What I Can't Affect

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Ever wondered what it’s like to raise a profoundly disabled child? How we communicate with our angel with crooked wings if he or she can’t speak? How our other children cope? In what way it affects our relationships with our partner or family we originated from?


We parents in this situation wonder what life will be like when they grow up – for them and for us. 


If you weren’t someone who would speak up you will be a roaring advocate by the time he or she has become a young adult. If you waited around for someone else to take the lead in adverse situations you’ll be an astounding leader of others in a few short years. Your own family will become a tightly knit unit and your kids will become so attuned to others around them that they become almost physic in understanding the motivation and needs of others without a single word uttered. You will become a personality that amazes the previous you – as will all of your children.


From my daughter’s birth to the age of 21, this book will take you on our journey of self-discovery, love, laughter and the immense pride we have in being a parent or sibling to a child who is ‘different’.

As someone who’d only held a baby once before in her life before giving birth to a profoundly disabled child at 31 and had agreed with her father as a teenager that babies born with defects should be left to die – the universe decided to answer the request Kerry had uttered during her 20s: to be blessed with better patience.

The gods must’ve slapped their knees at their own joke when Kerry was given Shianna. An angel with crooked wings, she was born with Cornelia de Lange Syndrome – highly autistic, non-verbal with a convergent squint, severe digestive system problems and cerebral palsy levels of spasticity. Kerry had to relearn a whole swathe of new attitude to cope. Has this given her the patience she was seeking?

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  • Kerry Lambert

    I am the author of this book and I hope you enjoy it. I have been told that it can be very confronting, is powerfully written and totally honest. If anything it can show that what you thought was going to be your worst nightmare can end up being a beautiful existence. XXXXX

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