Disordered

Young Adult

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She thought control would save her. Instead, it became the very thing that consumed her. In Disordered, Eloise plunges readers deep into the fractured psychology of anorexia nervosa—an illness that masquerades as devotion, reshaping the mind until self-destruction epitomises salvation.

Told through lyrical prose and piercing honesty, this novel blurs the line between memoir and fiction whilst being entirely true. Guided by Mallory—the personification of the eating disorder itself—Eloise dissected her own descent into obsession, fear and identity loss. Each chapter peels back another layer of the illness, exposing its seductive cruelty and the impossible task of recovery when the enemy sounds like your own voice.

At once brutal and beautiful, Disordered is not just a story of illness but of survival. It is for those who have lived in silence, those who have loved someone disappearing before their eyes, and those still fighting to be heard.

Because sometimes, the most dangerous love story is the one you have with yourself.

Eloise Anna Michelle is an aspiring Australian author with a razor-sharp eye for the complexities of the human mind. In her debut book, Disordered, she turns that gaze inward, dissecting the insidious grip of anorexia with haunting lyricism and unflinching honesty.

From a young age, Eloise was drawn to storytelling—not just as a form of expression but as a way of making sense of the world. She has always been fascinated by the contradictions of human nature, the blurred lines between control and chaos, identity and illness, and love and destruction. Writing became her way of navigating these tensions, and Disordered is the result.

She doesn’t just recount experiences; she dissects them, exposing the psychological mechanics behind anorexia. She challenges the idea that recovery is a simple act of choosing to get better, instead revealing the brutal reality of unlearning an identity that once felt like home.

She writes not just for herself, but for those who feel unseen—the ones who have been told their suffering is not enough to count, or that their pain must look a certain way to be real. With Disordered, she offers a voice to those who have been silenced, proving that the most powerful stories are often the ones we are most afraid to tell.